Thursday, June 25, 2009

No time to cry.

Everything hit me this morning as I was getting ready to go to the dentist. Lack of money, stress about having to move, my weight loss stalling for some inexplicable reason, Silver leaving and ohmygod how are we going to pay for everything? Then I hurt my right wrist while I was trying to wring the last drops of face wash out of the tube ('cause I'm holding off on buying more as long as I humanly can). My wrist, the one I really need to be healthy for my job. So I can do massages and make money.

My eyes started to burn and my throat got tight. Then I realized I didn't have TIME to cry. Even though I really needed to. And that's just sad.

Well fuck it all. I just have to pull up my big girl panties and move on. I can cry when I'm dead! Yeah, that's it.

4 comments:

Roismhaire said...

Aw.
If it's any consolation YOUR weight loss has been an inspiration to me to get my butt back to the gym (my muscles are nice and sore as I write this)!
Know what you mean about the wrist pain panic. I've had it and it's scary. ICE and anti-inflammatory drugs have worked for me in the past.
When are you planning on moving?

Anonymous said...

Hang tough Girly Girl.

Don't let the chickenshit get ya down.

Dick
BDP

Christina RN LMT said...

Wow! That's extremely cool, Roismhaire (the gym thing, I mean). I've never considered myself an inspiration to ANYONE. I'm just muddling along, trying to do my best to make it. I LOVE cold packs, and plan on putting one on my wrist this evening. It feels better now, and that's after several massages, too. I'd love to move to Texas by the end of the year, but I don't see it happening. I think next summer is more feasible. Time enough to pay off some bills and save up some money.

Dick, ya old softie! Thanks. :)

Christina RN LMT said...

Oh, DUH! I have to move out of this apartment before the end of July, but I'm going to extend it to the end of August. I have two friends who I'll be roomies with, and we can rent a house and split the expenses. I can't afford to live here anymore, with Silver 18 and no more child support, not to mention the rent increase. Then NEXT summer, I plan on moving to Texas.